Hello people!!!
Time passes so fast!!! It's my last week of school in Sydney before my final exam. It feels like I just came here yesterday.
For the past few months, I had been living alone without my family members and it's really my 1st time staying away from home for so long without my family. Since I was young, I am a very dependent person. I always depend on people to help me with everything in my life. When I'm hungry and nobody is at home, I'll rather starve or just eat some snacks while waiting for my mom to buy food back for me. I won't even bother to walk out of my house to buy lunch for myself. Like what Amelia says, our generation is too pampered already. No, should say our parents pampered us because they want to give us the best for everything.
I don't know what came to my mind that I want to learn to be independent and I insisted to come Sydney to study ALONE without my friends, without my maid and most importantly, without my family members. Actually I was planning to go overseas to study since 18 after I got my A levels result (partly it's because I can't get into the local university). But back then, my parents, especially my dad thought that I was too young to take care of myself. Hence, I stayed in Singapore to complete my bachelor degree. After I finished my bachelor, I really wanted to experience life overseas. Hence, I insisted to come over here to study and my dad eventually relented.
When I first came, I really don't know what to do because I felt really lost. My parents came with me for the 1st week to help me to settle down but left after. Hence, for my 1st week alone, I really felt helpless and depressed. I was thinking to myself whether I made the right choice of coming. I have no friends and this environment really felt different to me. I stayed at home everyday for the 1st week as I don't want to go out alone to eat and walk around alone. I remembered I just broke down and cried while skyping my mom because I was so bored that I kept thinking that I want to go home. Like I said, I am a very dependent person. But after I came here, I got no choice. I have to do things ALONE. I totally have NO ONE to depend on. Which I really dreaded it.
I remembered asking Chanya how did she survived when she 1st went to Melbourne (She went to Monash to study after A levels.) She told me bluntly that I just have to suck it up. She then asked me if I regretted coming here. Actually at that moment, I really cannot answer her. Part of me says yes but another part of me says no. But now, I am 100% sure that I would say NO. I didn't regret coming here. Yes, the 1st week can be really bad but eventually I really learnt a lot and I think I did many things that I thought I wouldn't do or don't do before. OMG. The more I thought of it, the more I feel proud of myself *pats myself at the back*. I already made a list of the things I achieved here and there's really more to come.
Anyways, I came to a conclusion that I really enjoyed myself for the past few months and I really learnt a lot. I would say that it's a good thing for me to go out of my comfort zone and look at the world from a different perspective. Like my tutor says, we must treasure our experience here because how many times in your lifetime are you able to experience living in another country for a period of time? I think there's many people with the same experience thinks the same as me. You can share your experience and your thoughts with me so that I can learnt through your experience =)